I am really trying my hardest to stay positive, but there are days when I fall apart. I feel like I'm riding a huge roller coaster. (not the fun kind) My surgery is scheduled for the 24th of this month and as much as I want to just get to that day, get things figured out and find out exactly what is wrong with me, I am also so scared for the same reasons. Most days I feel calm and that things will work out and that this is just a huge trial in my life. Then there are those days when I let all the "what if's" get the best of me. I don't know what I would do without all of you. I know your prayers and fasting have helped me. I feel so much support and love from so many of you and it helps me so much to know that you are going through this right along with me. I am planning my oldest son's 7th birthday party, which is fun for me and takes my mind off of all the uncertainty. I have realized that even though this is my trial, everyone is going through some sort of trial. Life is just really hard. There are people all around us going through many, many trials and we have no idea what they are dealing with. When we are allowed to see a small glimpse of what others are dealing with, we realize that we are not alone. That's why we all have each other. We will get through things with each other and the help of our Heavenly Father. I feel that He is helping me and beside me every step of the way through this difficult time. If He is helping me, He will help all of you too with whatever you may be going through. If you could, please pray and fast on the 24th for a good outcome for me. I know that the prayers of many make a difference. I have already seen this happen. Thanks again for everything!!
On a much lighter note, I wanted to post some pictures that I took of the twins when they turned 5. I usually head up to Target (with the white sheet as the backdrop), but I decided that I could just do the picture myself and I really like how they turned out. I am so blessed to have such darling little boys!! I LOVE THEM!
Aaron
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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Riding the Rollercoaster
Posted by Amberly at 10:21 AM
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The birthday party will be a good distraction. Keep positive thoughts. I'm saying prayers for you that everything turns out ok. (((Big hugs)))
Love the pictures of the twins, so cute and you're right why pay someone to do something that you can do just as well if not better.
Davin's party will be a great distraction for you.
Keeping you in my thoughts, Am
Those pictures are so adorable, target could not have even come close! They are lil stud muffins!!! Your boys are so handsome, we'll see you on Sat.
No more 'what if' games!!!!!!!!!!! (I won't if you won't, hehe love you am!)
We LOVE you Am! You are in our prayers every day, but will especially be on the 24th. We're coming down to visit later this week and would love to see you. Let me know if you're up for visitors.
Cute pictures! You have such cute boys! We're thinking of you.
The pictures are so cute, and we will surely fast and pray with you. You are still be remembered in all of our prayers and will continued to be. I keep ready talks about faith and it helps.
The highlight of my day was coming home from a TERRIBLE day in Provo with my boys....only to read the sweetest note from you on the cutest card ever. I love you so much. I am so glad we had our talk the other night. Maybe my problems can be a distraction from yours :) We ARE in this together, girlfriend, and I am so glad that you realize that. Stay postivie, you know I am!!!
The pictures of the boys are FABULOUS! Target just lost a customer...way to go! Hang in there sweetie...yes, we are ALL in this together! Love YOU!
Cute pictures of your boys! Good luck on the 24th, we will def. be praying for you!
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